Been thinkin' so much
  when what I need is not to feel
Been feelin' so hard
  when I just need not to think
Been watchin' wrong details grow
  when i'm desperate not to know

i remember no anger
  joy love my anchor
    which also flirts me
          flings me
          floats me
                      flys me
      delicious gorgeous dichotomy

but i know noe now
  reset returned to “how?”
no love
no lover
  almost always alone
    lost in loser loner
refractured heart reformed yet still fragile
  as hope reigns rains dies eternal
    in the soul broken emotion stole

dreams of desires
  and their delicacy
loves and lusts
  longings for intimacy
blood burning with passion's possibilities
  becomes blood burnt by pathetic impossibilities

silver streams splinter puddle
  sliver screams spill pool
dripped drowned drained
  drip down the drain

& when is the parole from this sentence
  how long this exile into abstinence?
precious little patience remains
  on the verge of the edge