when i type i'm afraid that allmywordsruntogetherandthatyou will never know what i'm trying to tell you that you'll never understand the words flying off the merry-go-round in my head i feel as if i'm flying off the handlebars of my bike and i'm in that moment of ecstacy where i suddenly realize i will hit the ground hard but until then i have this moment of freedom in the air my biggest fear has always been that i will be misunderstood that is why i take semester after semester course after course lecture after lecture writing page after page of tiny spiny words to make sure i learn every single way i can express myself in case i forget one because i do and it terrifies me