Like the raging winds And the torrential rains They came back.
The urges, The desire to tear into flesh To sink into an abyss of pain Only to never come out
I was naive to think They'd stay away for good To think A little over a month was long enough to Escape the hell my life had become
I thought they were gone for good That I was safe from my most primal urges **** or be killed Destroy or be destroyed
But a month isn't enough To stop salivating over blades To stop daydreaming of bridges and throwing yourself off them
It will never be enough No matter how long I stay clean.
Because I will always be smudged, A mirrorΒ Β coated with dust Never to reveal the whole truth, Just a sick dance of marionettes Jolting against their strings.