I'm tired of feeling pulled
in ten different directions
by all these expectations
and never knowing just
who I'm supposed to listen to.
I want to live for myself
and make my own decisions,
but I've never really risen
to the occasion when it counted.
What I am good at, though,
is letting myself be controlled
by the wishes of others.
I guess I'm just inadequate,
my efforts never suffice
when I'm left to my own devices.