i've been
immersing myself in films
to escape the present
but

(disney's "Hercules" reminds me of you
i watched it three times
this week
just to catch glimpses of you

ten minutes into "Captain America"
a mix of salt and water created streams on my cheeks
accompanied by silent sobs
how could a fictional character
so beautifully
capture your essence?)

it seems i've
managed to trap myself in my past
that is you