Are you a dream?
Like a mirage, you shimmer in and out of reality
Enticing me to follow
Disappearing when I do
Spouting words of promise that we both know isn't true

How did we get here?
Forever started eight months ago
Forever ends in two weeks
Though you say it won't happen
I'm wary of what you speak.

What is it you want?
Me? My body? My affection? Attention?
I'll give it to you.
I'll give you my all.
You can lean on me
It's too late for me not to fall.

Do you feel it?

Am I delusional
To think
You might have been
Him?

Is it ludicrous
To assume
I might have been
At least an inkling of something
To you?

Am I wrong
When I say
We're different?

Am I insane
For wanting what can never be mine
But can only be shared?

Am I sure
That I want you?

And if I'm not,
How can I release you
Without losing me?

If I am,
How can I accept you?
How can I trust you?
How can I be with you,
Without being with everyone else too?
How can I save myself from being hurt?
I can't.

But are you worth the risk?