my inner workings ache with something
closer to hunger than loneliness
I know

i won't eat something
i won't eat anything
i want to be away
another country another state
of being
i want mushrooms i want acid
i want whiskey i want clarity
no
I want to be dumbed down to nothingness
the void  of uncertainty
every breath shudders and the pain never slows

well and good that you have your **** together
i'm teetering on the brink of black
solace is madness
weather this with me, oh soul apart
whence did you
come
i lost track of the days
hiding alone in my
bed
when will i see you?
can we please come together....
this ******* believes I am to blame
love unrequited is nobody's fault
or is it possible my spinning laughter and *** appeal
is my own terrible  aspect
expect
to be hurt
by my apathy
once more