Apr 2014
Make sure your heart isn't heavy from unrequited love,
Or from love letters with "return to sender" staining the front in dark, black ink over your own meticulously crafted words.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy from holding onto lost causes,
And too full from tears and whispered curses when you're holding yourself at 2 am.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy when you lose someone else's,
Or when you see them walking down the street hand in and hand with another and you might just hold your own so that you don't feel too lonesome.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy with the weight of the world
And everything you've ever felt too strongly about.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy with regret or hatred
Towards anyone who did you wrong and left you heavy hearted in the first place.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy-
It'll weigh you down to the notion that you can't reopen it once the incisions have healed.
Make sure your heart isn't so heavy
That you fall to it's weight and forget what it means to be light.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy-
It'll lift you in more ways than one.
Or from love letters with "return to sender" staining the front in dark, black ink over your own meticulously crafted words.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy from holding onto lost causes,
And too full from tears and whispered curses when you're holding yourself at 2 am.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy when you lose someone else's,
Or when you see them walking down the street hand in and hand with another and you might just hold your own so that you don't feel too lonesome.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy with the weight of the world
And everything you've ever felt too strongly about.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy with regret or hatred
Towards anyone who did you wrong and left you heavy hearted in the first place.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy-
It'll weigh you down to the notion that you can't reopen it once the incisions have healed.
Make sure your heart isn't so heavy
That you fall to it's weight and forget what it means to be light.
Make sure your heart isn't heavy-
It'll lift you in more ways than one.
I can either be very upset and discouraged toward obstacles in my life or see them as (sometimes painful) learning opportunities and chances to grow as a person. I need to choose the latter, otherwise I feel like pessimism and sadness will take over and I don't want to be so discouraged by past events that I can't enjoy new things and people coming my way. Life hurts sometimes but I don't ever want to be so numb that I believe being closed off is better than opening up, feeling and trying again until I get it right. Feeling as much as I do is tiresome, taxing and occasionally overwhelming and heart wrenching. When things are good though, they're beautiful and I feel beautiful and I want to make other people feel beautiful too. So I can't have a heavy heart from sadness and lost chances and people who aren't or can't be there for me. I can't lose myself in that, and this is what this poem is about.
