You called me selfish.
For a long time I felt guilty,
until I turned you from a victim
into a villain.
As the anger has faded
from the lights of an ambulance
into the dull, neon red glow of an
emergency exit sign,
I have begun to realize that
you saw me as the bad guy, too.
You probably still do,
and maybe I am selfish,
and maybe I want to apologize,
but what if they're all right
and you were just trying to
get me to say sorry?
What if you're just dying to
see me come crawling back to you?
I don't want you to think
I need you,
because I don't,
but I'm not selfish,
and I don't want you to think so.