I can't work. I don't feel like working anymore. Yesterday was a sad and beautiful day as the same time. I felt like an idiot. But I didn't want to think about it. Today I wrote a little note, where I wrote all my feelings. How my heart was hurting, now I feel so much better. I know that I will feel bad again. For the same reason. I'm just lost. A bit. and I don't want to talk about it.