i once told you a month wasn't enough to climb to where your heart wanted to be and yell to the world "i am strong"
but i am wrong
your birthday came and so did news we could not return later if we did not find it fit us it was a million sizes too big
you turned 49 this year but the only thing growing next year is the amount of time you've spent in heaven
two weeks into a perilous journey you were still able to walk still able to speak your mind still able to smile two weeks into heartbroken news you still lit up the sky and threw away the smoke and i was proud of you a month was long enough to prove yourself worthy of friendship worthy of smiling worthy of standing, laughing- wrapping up the hurt and storing it inside of you holding on for those who watched over you
and now you watch over us
a month spent on treacherous ground and no longer could you open your eyes let your smile shine through even though the pain you wore was now sizes too small but you held on anyway
three days later we told you "we are strong"
we are strong because you are apart of us
"we will be okay without you, spread your wings, fly"
and you did
a month and two days to this date is the amount of time you've spent soaring the sky and if words could tell you how much i miss you i would send them - scream them to you
you will forever be my north star
Yet again for my Aunt, who has been gone for too long now. I miss you every second. I wish this was only a dream.