I know I shouldn't be scared of you I know I shouldn't double check the locks on the doors and windows every night It doesn't do anything You always find a way in You slither into my room Invading my thoughts You keep my up at night I used to stay up to keep you away You used to be afraid of the light But now you're not afraid of anything So I'm afraid of everything I used to be indifferent Apathetic But the constant loss of sleep And the continuos unbearable stress has made me grind my teeth again My canines are almost flat And maybe that's why you're not afraid of me anymore I am no longer a threat I'm barely a person and you're not helping Go back to juvie because I can't Deal won't your drug anymore You won't let me focus Stop standing outside my window I said no But you didn't listen And now I've started sleeping with a knife under my pillow again I wish you would just leave me alone But you can't and I understand that So next time you try to **** yourself over me Let me know so we can talk You know I don't like you And I know you think you love me But you don't know me No one can love me Because There is nothing left to love You call me beautiul And that makes me uncomfortable Because I hate when people lie to me How can you look at my disfigured soul And see anything less than Complete failure I'm a mess But I don't want you to clean me up Because I can't think in a spotless room I can't find a thing when it's put away It's like reverse OCD But you don't understand that So you stand outside my living room window Waiting for a glimpse of me Because I don't answer the door when you knock You pound on the door like the pounding in my room From the rocks you throw at my window Pretty soon it's going to crack And the I will have to tell people about you There is a reason I no longer sleep with my shades up I don't want you to watch me anymore So please just leave me alone