The past can make it so easy to relapse
not because of the past itself
but
running away from it
and burying it in the subconscious,
hiding it away and letting it silently
fest fest fest.
Is what causes you to be haunted.
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Pain;
A raging sore, a deep wound, an eternal scar,
just wants to be felt; acknowledged.
So I try not, to ignore it
when I see the marks of the past; knives
digging into the valves of my heart; pain
even when it comes back
strong and hard and fighting
like a hurricane
carrying me away under water
suffocating the freedom in my punctured lungs
I will not let it destroy me.
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Its not because I am weak that I struggle with it
but the brain is strong; be aware...
For thoughts can make you a victim of your own mind
though I hope
there will be a time when
healing, that miraculous God-sent healing is at the end.
When
you stop ignoring the past
and instead start loving those broken pieces, the shame you felt,
the fear that crippled
and realise
it will soon ease, soon melt away, soon diminish
and you’ll remember
pain has no authority to hurt