My happiness is like the sun Making it throughout the day It's an internal clock, a circadian rhythm The sun rises, and I have to act like it's okay As the day goes on, it becomes easier And at my peak, I'll illuminate the sky Celestial and vibrant, I'll burn bright But It's not good enough no matter what I try And then I'll start sinking As day turns to night And coldness will sink into every crevice and hole Watch the horizon as the world slips into twilight Cause I'm the most beautiful when I leave And no one will see any of my wounds Just as no one can see The dark side of the moon And dear Luna will steal my glow And keep the night owls company Because my life is dark And I don't want anyone to see But then even the moon will fall And my time will come again I'll rise and shine, act perfectly fine And like the sun, this pattern will never end
The title is a reference to Numb by Marina and The Diamond because it fit and I always turn to Marina when I'm lost.