They call me The Alpha...
My community calls me the Alpha Female
A-don't care...
A not senstitive soul.
A Hurt-resistant human.

Dating a couple people at the same time they say is my policy
They have a picture of  me in their minds, So they don't mind.
They don't care...
afterall am resistant to pain right?

Here is THE TRUE story.
I Love...I Feel...I hurt
Yes I Do.
Maybe I have to put a brave front so I don't look desperate but No, I Love.
I Do.

eg. There is this particular soul, #sigh
Her beauty caught my eye since that picnic...
Its been a year now...and I still Love her.
I hate admitting it.
It makes me weak.
So weak because we have never gone exclusive.
I Stand firm...stern...composed.
Untill I hear a song by one "JOSHUA RADING" and Like a drunk
I lose my composture
I ran...
I hide...
I cry.
Then I wipe my eyes and come out of the room, all re-created.

Nothing solid has taken place between US, but deep I feel she is the ONE.
Back then, I was ready, she wasn't...now, am not ready, but she is.

I wish I could let her see herself through my eyes...
just to see what she means to me.
But it all goes to the same point, she told her friends "She is way out of my league, I can't afford her"

I Hate the label humans have put on my forehead
That makes it hard to be Loved.
Am just human.
Principled and independent YES, BUT WITH A HEART TOO.

It Hurts...it's pains.

But I will OUTLIVE this mentality.
And someday, SHE WILL BE MINE, AND I, HER'S.

©The Unspoken