Orange hair on a hard mattress. You smelt of lavender and gin and I knew in some adverse way that I was responsible for both and from it I took small pleasures all of them equally as perverse and unjustified.
It's all the motions of unrequited love; except it's as far from unrequited as it could be and I'm happy about that.
A man once told me that someday I might be happy that I didn't get the things I so strongly yearned for.