Slender body coasting by the corner of my eye
in the darkness of this spacious room we both sit, *******
in chairs facing corners
on opposite sides of the compass.

But I still catch glimpses, I can still feel your energy
pulsing through the floorboards; breathing down my neck,
in every slight movement that makes this old estate creak.

Of all the monsters trapped inside my brain,
trust (& all the issues I've acquired with that)
makes me consider the games you play.
Do you, on all four paws- purr like a kitten in another felines palm?
Does she give you the sun & moon
like I'd so willing do?

maybe, I'm just a little too ****** up for you
a little too off the edge to handle
& a little too needing of some constant state of affection

it is me after all,
right?

But,
it's alright.
I understand,
let me fade away
like footprints in the sand.

Please love,

enjoy all your tomorrows
as I enjoy my todays,
forget my name
forget my face.