The memories come back
Spitting in my face
Reminding me that I'm a disgrace
All of the courage that I lack

Unable to get through a single day
Without thinking of that look in your eyes
All the expressions held were your empty lies
Always had to have it your way

So afraid of losing me
That you would do anything
Since you knew what the truth would bring
As long as I didn't know and didn't see

Even when I heard from a friend
These things were happening while I was gone
As you'd take puffs in and out, for oh, so long
Funny you hadn't mentioned you were at it again.
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