in the worst possible state of mind
there's so much I regret
wish I could leave it
stuck in a maze
caught up
in a daze
****,
get me out
of this place
before all hell
breaks loose
and I accidentally
might break me
as well as you

I have this pain
in my chest
sleep never works
I can never rest
I can feel the strain
the colliding emotion
it's drowning me again

I can feel the pressure
it's hard to measure
is it this much?
or the opposite
of all this?

thought overload
feels like my heart
is going to explode

I have no function
new year but still
I'm broken
and lost
getting caught up
in too much ****

trying to find myself
but it's so rough
picking myself up
from the ground
that's already tough

feels like my heart
has had enough

I'm falling apart
at the seams
losing myself
like I do
in my nightmares
as well as my dreams

suffocating in thought
breaking as we speak
I'm losing it
as we talk