ive been planning
pills lined up
blades sharpened
rope ready

take a step
closer and closer
to the edge
fall and hit the pavement

pills pills pills
i hate taking pills
what an awful way to go
suffocating on drugs

maybe
draw a nice warm bath
wear my favourite clothes
cut deep and breathe out
red into the water

i hope i die
coma or car crash
i hope i die
so i dont have to do it myself