Sorrow, hurt,
I'm hopelessly seeking warmth
From you who so distantly
Love

Love?
I reach my hands towards you again
But as my finger nears your surface
They immediately turn ******
And a whiplash of hurt and sorrow encompass me
Almost like I'm experiencing it for the first time again

I lament this relationship
Question my emotional yearning for you
When you so constantly trample on my expectations
I wish things were better
But I am here
I am me
You are you
You are you...

So vengeful I am in my curse on you
You're parents
Their parents and their parents
All of those who taught you such behaviour was sound
For it is I who is left with this dejection
This immense unending sadness
And maybe you felt this sadness too
And yet here you are, physically grown and yet mentally not
Inflicting this all on to me

I lament this relationship
Lament that I so constantly am overwhelmed by these feelings
So I hold it all in
And then burst in my lonesome
For who can hear my sorrows
With an ear of empathy
And a heart of understanding
No one

Silent treatment is said to be wrong
But opening my mouth just exposes me to more pain
So I resort to the numbing effect of silence
Avoiding your gaze
Avoiding your passed rage
Silence all encompassing, relaxing the muscles of my face

And so to shall pass this phase
As I shall be the one to hold my heart to warm it again