I know I told I didn’t want to go out But the truth is I could not I want to scream at the top of my voice The knot in my throat doesn’t give me that choice My heart beats a million miles a minute It’s almost funny that I worry it will suddenly not They say all I need to do is ******* breathe I’m already doing that, more than I should It is said that it’s always good to be prepared Trust me, there’s not a single what if I’ve missed The sound of a raised voice leaves me spiralling Unfortunately that voice is always in my head I have completely withdrawn from the world Everyday in my bed I lay curled It seems to have made a home in me This thing, that no one can see It continues to tear me apart bit my bit And I just let it, without even putting up a fight Just give me the magic pill To make it go away Before I get too comfortable Being this way