A strange, dense, heavy word. Once, graceful and noble or it seemed to be until I used it too much. I know that something fails, that I’m losing its huge potential.
If I pronounce it aloud it doesn’t shine anymore for me in the tiny corners of my mind. It lingered awkwardly, repeating “I’m here!”.
The tangled threads imposing new interpretations. The materializing weight of sounds. It's a bitter pill to swallow, but I know the side effects.
The lightness of the feather turns into a red brick. When it hits me, my inner calm ceases to exist.
I’m struggling to rationalize, to be more tolerant. And I just ask myself: if I truly believe, why do I say it?
The word so needed, so loved, in the silence, in conviction, in the presence of no absence.
Something authentic, wasn’t it meant to be spoken? So sinister… it builds and destroys.