“I deserve better”
“Find someone who wants and deserves me”
The sentences I’m sick of hearing
Inside of my own head

The thing is
I don’t want any other person
I just want this person to be better
For me
Is it too much to ask?

For the longest time I thought I was hard to love
When he appeared he showed me love
He showed me I was someone
I felt cared for

I got drained
Things did not work out
Until they did again
(Or so I thought)

What was once an obsession for him
Disappeared without a two weeks notice
Drier answers with long deliveries
Always tired for me
But never for his friends

I am doing everything
Asking to be with him and to talk
Feels like I’m begging tho
And I was never a beggar

I’m scared
To start over
To try and love again
To move on
To see him move on

This is the fear that gives me a tiny bit of hope

I just wish I was fearless

Because
“I deserve better”