3d
For
My Brother,
My Lover,
My Enemy,
My Friend.
For Someone I’ll Never Forget
I should’ve known. How time changes things. But I’m not talking about how my hair looks different from when I was running around in the school playground, Or how I was playing with dolls and dressing up, and now I keep my eyes glued on my phone. I’m talking about how I used to laugh with you in the back of the class, now I watch you across the classroom laughing with someone I don’t even know the name of.
We used to plan how we would set up our rooms in our future 2 bedroom apartment together, or how we get our first job together, how we would never leave each other no matter the situation. But instead I watch you walk past me without even waving.
I should've known. You would find someone that treated you like a person, they would stay on the phone with you through bad Facebook messenger calls because you never got a phone with service, you would follow them around the school at lunch break because you claimed to have no friends, and you would see a small smile form on their face because that same smile formed on mine when you told me you would rather be with me anyway.
Because I laughed on how your face was all distorted and blurry because we both had bad Wi-Fi, because I walked with you to the teacher to ask if we could sit together, because I buried my face in my hands when you were doing everything to embarrass me while trick-or-treating on Halloween, because I made you sign a contract swearing you would be my friend for the rest of eternity, because I treated you like someone, a person, a friend, my friend.
I should’ve known. That when you called me that night for the first time in months, it wasn’t because you wanted to talk to me about your show or because you were bored. But it was about how you and her broke up. It was about how you loved her. That you couldn’t find anybody because they all just leave. Yet, I still stayed. Listening to you sob and talk about you and her together. The next day instead of seeing you across the school cafeteria, I saw you next to me. And for a moment, I thought I could laugh with you again. But still, I should've known.
Because a week later you were gone again. With her. I should’ve known. All of that laughter and smiles would turn into jealousy and tears.
I should’ve known. You would find someone and get away from the groups of people looking at us in the hallways.
I should’ve known. You would grow up after saying you never would.
I should’ve known. You would walk with someone else to a class.
I should’ve known. I would get a new friend group with you not in it.
I should’ve known. I would call a friend and it wouldn’t be you.
I should’ve known. that the promise we made with each other to always be by each other's side was just another thing
I should’ve known from the start.
My Brother,
My Lover,
My Enemy,
My Friend.
For Someone I’ll Never Forget
I should’ve known. How time changes things. But I’m not talking about how my hair looks different from when I was running around in the school playground, Or how I was playing with dolls and dressing up, and now I keep my eyes glued on my phone. I’m talking about how I used to laugh with you in the back of the class, now I watch you across the classroom laughing with someone I don’t even know the name of.
We used to plan how we would set up our rooms in our future 2 bedroom apartment together, or how we get our first job together, how we would never leave each other no matter the situation. But instead I watch you walk past me without even waving.
I should've known. You would find someone that treated you like a person, they would stay on the phone with you through bad Facebook messenger calls because you never got a phone with service, you would follow them around the school at lunch break because you claimed to have no friends, and you would see a small smile form on their face because that same smile formed on mine when you told me you would rather be with me anyway.
Because I laughed on how your face was all distorted and blurry because we both had bad Wi-Fi, because I walked with you to the teacher to ask if we could sit together, because I buried my face in my hands when you were doing everything to embarrass me while trick-or-treating on Halloween, because I made you sign a contract swearing you would be my friend for the rest of eternity, because I treated you like someone, a person, a friend, my friend.
I should’ve known. That when you called me that night for the first time in months, it wasn’t because you wanted to talk to me about your show or because you were bored. But it was about how you and her broke up. It was about how you loved her. That you couldn’t find anybody because they all just leave. Yet, I still stayed. Listening to you sob and talk about you and her together. The next day instead of seeing you across the school cafeteria, I saw you next to me. And for a moment, I thought I could laugh with you again. But still, I should've known.
Because a week later you were gone again. With her. I should’ve known. All of that laughter and smiles would turn into jealousy and tears.
I should’ve known. You would find someone and get away from the groups of people looking at us in the hallways.
I should’ve known. You would grow up after saying you never would.
I should’ve known. You would walk with someone else to a class.
I should’ve known. I would get a new friend group with you not in it.
I should’ve known. I would call a friend and it wouldn’t be you.
I should’ve known. that the promise we made with each other to always be by each other's side was just another thing
I should’ve known from the start.
This is about my childhood best friend! We used to do everything together and talk about how we would live together and never be apart but now we don't talk much. He's always with his other friends and his ex. He only talks to me when he has no one else.
