the peace, calm and
quietness terrifies me
when my soul is used to
getting ****** into
chaos, people’s
worlds and minds..
the unfamiliar feels
uncomfortable
to not constantly
await the inevitable
ups and downs,
pulls and push
that come with
being around those
kinds of people who thrive
on creating disorder..
to unlearn everything
i’ve ever been taught
every idea and thought
i’ve built myself on
to survive..to create
a world where i run
towards peace
and not from it
is all i want.