It doesn’t take much

One sad song
    one not even meant to be sad
One bittersweet moment
    one not meant to linger
One small fragment of a feeling
    one that I meant to let go

I don’t want to keep it
I never looked for it
I never sought it out
    it doesn’t care
I do everything I can to avoid it
    it doesn’t care
T.v, music, books
    it doesn’t care

Hours of nothing
Just to make it leave
    if only for a moment
I avoid, distract, ignore
Hoping that if I can make it feel forgotten it will be
    that it will leave

It doesn’t care
    it doesn’t go away
Instead it creeps closer
    it touches my chest
And sinks deeper

That’s where it stays

So heavy that I can’t feel anything else
    can’t focus on what I know is there but can’t find

My mind doesn’t understand it
Doesn’t understand how it can affect everything
Keep my eyes from seeing everything else
    everything that’s important
    and should feel that way
Doesn’t understand how it can change what I remember
    add a lens through which I can only see it where it wasn’t before

It wasn’t always there
    was it?

All the while it hasn’t made a sound
    it doesn’t need to make a noise
    for it to be so loud that it’s all I can hear
It doesn’t take much