i am learning how to swim
from the pedals to the butterfly,
feeling the water glide across my body
catapulted by my own device.

i am learning how to hold it in,
taking deep breaths- inhaling the chlorinated air
with quick gasps of relief,
as my lungs brave forth.

i am learning how to love
with the pieces left from familiar traumas,
to trust myself and others
as we open our arms in embrace.

i am learning how to live
where no one knows how to deal with life
and bravados are carefully maintained,
and anxiety is one thing we all share.

i am learning how to mourn,
to sit down with the losses,
and let the dam of tears flood
the pain and regrets of yesterday.