And at times it all hits me at once
Like a ton of bricks crashing into my body
stealing all of my breath until i’m able to stand
knocking me off of my feet
forcing me to remember every detail
from your alluring eyes
to your selfish and devious ways
i told myself it was worth it everytime
worth all the pain and suffering
worth all the tears and screaming
and sleepless lonely nights
just to have your hand back in mine again
and i believed it
i believed every word that you said to me
you told me you loved me
you made me feel as if i was the only one
you would ever need
i felt as if for a moment
i had found everything i had ever needed
but time is an enemy
i sit and watch the clock tick
hiding in the shadows of your destructive ways
waiting for another crash
the audacity you have
to continuouly steal every ounce of happiness i have
i’ve done nothing but love you
and in return i’ve only gotten heartache and pain
the insanity you have created in my mind
has led me on a destructive path
a path with no light at the end
i stay up at night with tears pouring down my face
unable to hide the scars you've created
days turn into weeks
weeks turn into months
and months will soon turn into years
and I know i will still hopelessly
be in love with you.