Can breathing feels like death?

Because I'm stuck
The gravity, my bed and my brain
makes a quick sand.


I'm scared of time I invest,
What if the schemes are scam?
I don't want to put my pieces on rent
Just so they know how it taste.

Is it alright to freak out?
Cuz everybody has to do it.
But skin of their face is motionless
And I'm tearing apart.

I don't want to regret that I didn't live 16.
I don't want to regret that I didn't try to make it better.

Can someone tell me before
Lost of what hurts less?

Will death feel like breathing?