Trying to look in one direction,
It's hard to navigate my own transition.
Many times, I see myself like no other, could I be your sister or your brother? So, then why should I even bother?
My feelings about myself appear difficult for others to comprehend as this has become my own rollercoaster to the sweet, bitter end.
It is not only a mindset of my own personal avenues that I must navigate but they are, also, my own internal processes to which I contemplate and separate.
The push pull of my internal devices appears harmful at times. Feelings of not being happy, called confused, or it's a just phase are word salad moments committing a series of crimes.
I know these interpretations that live inside of me, and I know that the choices that I make can either set me free or keep me locked up forever. Ying-yang in every mindful corner of the room.
I heard a saying the other day that said, "Broken crayons still color". First, I was at odds with this. Because was I really broken? Was my crayon wrapper torn off? Am I being labeled these things from distant voices?
These become unreliable truths made up in feeble minds. Not understanding the differences among us all. It is not creating comfortable realities for us to travel though. Their choices will define them and my choices will define me.
Do I struggle at times? For the most part, yes!!
But you know something.
I am ok with that.
I am ok making my own choices, and I am ok being the person I want to be. That is something that cannot be taken away.
Any transition in life can come with its own set of difficulties. How we navigate them will be the determining factors of our success in all that we do.