I don't want quick fixes or easy outs,
I want struggle and decision

The end of the line, the start of a new direction

I want to love so deeply that we change trajectory to aim for the same crash

I want the chaos of space

I want to feel the weight of the world and the weightlessness of the universe

I want us to traverse the himalayas and drown in the mariana trench

Just to be reborn as a new us
A new perspective
A new life

A flower dropping petals to the compost to grow again, with all the memory of what could go wrong and how to blossom correctly this time

I want to be so enthralled in the blanket of you that I suffocate under its weight

But I am not suffocating
I am screaming, in silence