You where the
Shining hope that
Brought me back to life
You filled the hole
in my heart
Just right
from the start
It was a perfect fit
Then
A nightmare hit
When I thought
I love my kids
I feel so sick
I had a family
Loved them
Thought she
Was ride or die
Never once did
It Cross my mind
That she would
Leave me behind
I realized
Fear in my eyes
Repeating the pain
Stuck in rewind
After that
I stayed in disguise
Love hidden through lies
Forgetting you and I
Are separate you couldn't
See my hearts true intentions
And I Couldn't hear
any of your questions
Begging  me why
Or see tears in your eyes
Years of repetition
Left you traumatized
I'm sorry that
My inability to change
Changed your view
Witch changed the way
You shaped To fill the hole
In my heart
You where a perfect fit
Right from the start
But today is different
I played the biggest part
I Just  damaged while
you helped me grow
I wish I could manage
Just to let  you know  
When you vanished
I faced the fear alone
I'll never cover up
A fear with a lie
It took me letting you go
To open my eyes
Now I have to live
the rest of my life
Knowing I caused
The demise of some one
That fit me so perfect
I hope that in time someone
Shows you your worth it
This is the goodbye
I don't want but
You deserve it