No affection No hugs no kisses No eyes no smile Yes I'll listen but I'm not the one she wants to talk to We're friends but I see nothing I'm here where she needs me she's there and else where I know she don't hate me but she certainly don't like me Okay she "likes" me but I fell in love Nothing I can write that hasn't been before This level of lonely is the bottom Grinding and gnashing of teeth Hair pulling and breath held not to scream