Each time it gets harder to dig up words with real meaning I feel like an actor walking in to his first screening. Its not important to anyone but me what I stumble to write It is sad in this bitter world that finding words is such a fight I want the trees to be greener, the flowers to last longer I want the sky to stay blue and my mind to stay stronger I want illness to just simply leave town for ever more Just leave my life and on the way out donβt slam the door I want to give more to the ones that I love so much I want them closer to me daily so I feel their touch It seems I have an awful lot of wants within my soul When I find them all I will finally feel somewhat whole.