I am Loving and Scared
I wonder what two words others would use
I hear a dozen different things
I see my closest friend smiling from the crowd as I read their lips
"Kind"
I want those I love to feel they are valued

I am Loving and Scared
I pretend I'm not afraid to dissuade others from fear
I feel guilty for situations I had no hand in
I touch my hand to theirs in an attempt to ground us both
I worry I'll someday lose them, or worse, they'll push me away
I cry when I'm alone and think of all that will be lost to time

I am Loving and Scared
I understand that such is the cycle of life
I say "I Love you" but the words are misunderstood
I dream of feeling warm and safe in someone's embrace
I try to be open to all opportunities
I hope that it will lead me down the right path

I am Loving and Scared