If I could go back 5 years ago to 23 year old me I would tell her to walk away. To not speak to him. No matter how badly I needed to. I would miss out on all of the love, all of the love I gave to him and all of the love he gave to me.
But it would be worth it. Worth it to miss the pain he caused, worth it to never know what it was like to love him. It would be worth it to know who I would have became if he never entered my life and flipped it upside down. I might be married, have a kid or two.
And most of all I wouldn’t have this giant hole in my heart that grew larger in size each time he left me. I wouldn’t be 29 years old, single and completely terrified of what’s out there. Who is out there.
If I could go back I would choose to have never met him.