when i close my eyes i see the red spilling over my legs my hands the floor i see the pieces of me that died here i see the whiteness of it the bathroom ceiling, maybe the absence of consciousness maybe the light before you...
almost died? you wouldn't have died you weren't gonna die -
does it matter? does that really matter when the blood pooled in my boots and pooled in my boots and pooled and pooled and pooled everywhere? everywhere.