I feel weak
remembering days I would weep
for hours
sour moments, feeling hopeless, out of focus
Please give me a break
I can't take it anymore
Can't fake it anymore
Mistakes cloud my mind
I don't remember what it felt like before this
Now I'm lying on the floor
hurting to my core
Learning to ignore
all the pain
I'm trying to ignore
all the ways my brain
tries to hijack my joy
I can't buy back the years
lost to fear
regret won't take me anywhere
but backwards
I can't forget the ache and affliction
misery and sickness
of feeling out of control
of my mind
What role do the chemicals play?
What reason do I have to stay?
When the sun goes down and I can't find my way, can't bear another day
Where are you, God?
Despair drowns me
Heart pounds
Face frowns
The alarm sounds
and I reset
forget it all
and move on to a new day