I listen to these songs one after the other playing on my playlist But each of these songs hold tags of memories The memories I live everyday through them Well, there is a memory of a boy Not a man whom I liked Not loved And that one song looks like him The song I played As I passed through those corridors to get a glimpse of him But here I am humming ' Heather ' As I see his girl laughing by his side I never imagined myself at 'her' place But he looked beautiful from a distance It gave that restless heart a kiss It felt good... So now I don't look at the boy I liked But his lover What 'she' wears How 'she' talks Her demeanor, that attracted him I am not jealous But 'she' makes me curious And I feel like learning about 'her' Turns out, Khaab was better than her But still not in 'her' place... I can't get jealous I never had that right Because I liked him from a distance He is not my moon But he looked charming 'She' loves him And sees his flaws They love each other everyday... And that can not be me As loving is tiring I do not love everyday But I do hate this flesh everyday How could I be 'her'? When I don't love myself
And I get back to those songs Where I feel like the protagonist The unloved one The one, some call ' The villain'.
"But I watch your eyes as she Walks by What a sight for sore eyes Brighter than the blue sky She's got you mesmerized while I die..." - Heather ( Conan Gray)