I'm happier now, I used be really sad. I used to only write sad things, but now it triggers me when others are depressed like me. To hear the pain a young women silently endures. I want to tell everyone it takes time and all the things that helped me but it never seems to stick with them. It wasn't all at once, it was day by day, one at a time. Sometimes we aren't ready for help, pain is comfortable and all you know. You gotta get to rock bottom before you are ready to grow.
It took time and grace and love for myself. Day are still hard sometimes and I feel the darkness creep into me but the happiness is there and it will always be.