I need
I need
I need
To believe
In something
Myself
Someone
Above

I need
I need
Insanity
Despair
Crazy
I need
To grow a pair

I need air
I need despair
Despair
Despair
It is my air

I understand
I understand
Why
They stay
Why they won't go away
Even when
Beaten and swayed
Cheated
And laid
I understand

Once you leave
Once you go
There's no place
No place
To call home

It was broken
It was bruised
it was you
It was you

Now what to do
What to do?

Go back
Go back
Turn your back

Leaving isn't sunshine
Leaving isn't forever happy
Leaving is one moment
One decision
One moment of truth
Realization

Realization fades
Realization goes gray
You begin
To sway
You begin to say

I want to go
I want to go back
I want it again

I want despair
I want crazy
I need my air
I can't grow a pair
I can't
I can't
I can't believe in
Myself
I can't believe in
Hope

I can't
I can't
I need crazy
I need stress
I need comfort
Nothing less
I need money
I need home
I need battered and bruised
I need to be used
It was you
It was you
I was too good to you
You were bad to me
It's my epiphany
I need
To be
Abused
I need you
To hurt me again
I need to be over used
Like an inkless pen
It was my purpose
My purpose
My purpose
I'm gone
Gone
I'm gone
nowhere
I'm lost
Lost
Lost
In this frost
Frost less fire
Frost less rage
I'm in a cage
I called freedom
We never have freedom

Breaking free
Is only happy
For a moment
Then it settles in
Under ur skin
You miss it
You miss them
The pain
The darkness
Was comfort
Even the mess
Was a silk dress
On your skin
Rather then sinking
In
Lost-depression
Healing
Healing
Healing
It's dealing
With the
Crazy
With the
Lazy
With the
Lost
Hopeless
Gutless
Breathing
Yearning
Draining
Spraining
My­ back
To keep track
And not
Run back
To you
Your arms
Twisting
Twisting
Twisting
My neck
Abrasions
All over
Just check
I liked it
I'm a wreck
A wreck
Without a ship
A wreck
Dusted into sea
A wreck
Meant to be
Going going
Fastly
Into
Insanity
A wreck
Trying to heal
Is like a ship
Trying to fly
It's not real

Let me wreck
Let me wreck
Let me crash
Back into you
Twist my neck
Twist my arms
Drown me again
So I can feel

The warmth
Of
Home