Note to future self  in February…

They say never trust a cheater but what if you cheated out of fear of what’s to come?
For I was boy handling a gun
Now a man who understand what love comes from.
Even though I think it’s stupid to be dumb but the numbness that has summon is suggesting lust is better than love.
….And so I forgive you my love.
When I think about you cheating I understand for we were just boys handling a gun…
But if I was shooting my shot
Forgiveness is as a trained assassin.