Is life really worth living if you feel worthless every ******* day? Empty and I can’t face my own feelings. The distraction is what I will always seek. I can't face it, I’m to ashamed. But I will drink, I will stuff my nose with so many chemicals that my brain will die by each day. I’m selfish and sad, and everybody I love makes me mad. My so called friends turned their back on me. I cheated on the only person that truly loved me. I made someone cheat and I made somebody lie. I said I stopped and for a few days I did, I actually did. But now I didn’t just **** every chance I had, I also killed the happy version of myself. The girl that loved, smiled, laughed and joked. Now I’m the girl that is desperate, ugly, empty and an addict. I used to be so happy, I used to remember every song. I’m ******* nothing and I can’t remember anything.