I am suddenly overwhelmed
by a terrifying feeling

Right now I’m still in control of the chaos
but soon it’ll control me
as it always does
Any day now
the dominoes will come tumbling down around me
Until one day none are left standing

I’ve been dreading that day
since I was a little girl
crying myself to sleep at night
Hoping, even praying, it would never come
because when it does
I’ll feel a loss - a pain - a sorrow
like I felt only once before in my life
But this time it’ll keep coming for me
domino by domino

And it will tear me to pieces
because I’m not a strong person
however much I pretend to be
I might’ve grown on the outside
but on the inside
I’m still that little girl, lying in bed
crying her eyes out