Is it my life or a puzzling disorder Can I trust these murky waters Close my eyes and put my faith in this deceitful mirage, Hoping it will lead me to my heart. The crystal fear is getting stronger, my ****** tears flowing longer. The noisy train promised a destination but thrown at me are uncertain equations,, My naive steps waver with hesitation. The pelting rain owed me a rainbow, not this wretched game of life Drowning me, dragging me below.