sometimes things are good to know
so  i can understand.
i try to be some men's dream so they don't have to get bored of me
because it seems just me is never enough
and it seems to be that way for all of them so far
just me is never enough
and perhaps a change is needed
maybe in the way i think of myself
i know i love deeply, i know i love commitedly and truly
but maybe other's don't experience that for me
i'll accept that i'm someone to love sometimes
not an always love or an only love
just sometimes
sexually wanted by him sometimes
but i know i'm always on for him, i'm always for him,
it's only him and
i accept my fate. it hurts, it hurts so much but i have to
accept these things. it's the only way i won't be hurt anymore