When I lay in bed, I think of you
I wanna cry my eyes out
When I'm awake, I think of us
I wanna tear your heart up
Not for lying, but for saying
That you loved me and ****
And for playing with my emotions
Like I was losing myself
No more venom in my system
But I'm still not over your presence
You are haunting and consuming
Sometimes I hate my own existence
You were amazing, ******* amazing
But it was all an illusion
Now I'm smashing
All the mirrors
Because I no longer
Feel safe behind closed doors
You were a liar but I fooled myself
Into thinking you were your true self
My heart keeps beating for someone
Who was lying to keep me in their bed
As if I didn't suffer enough
You filled my head
With thoughts of forever
Really thought we'd be together