We threw two bottles of hairspray
into the fire just to laugh at the expressions
on each others' faces when it exploded

We sang along to the same **** punk
cover songs we've been playin since
the seventh grade and chain smoked
in the damp grass

We said we'd be star gazing tonight
but our heads started spinning
after the tenth time someone said,
"Chug this"
And then all the white lights
began to blend together,
against the black sky
creating this peaceful yet dizzying
array of light and dark

The moon sort of caught your face
in the left corner
Illuminated your crooked side burns
and danced over the long side of your Mohawk

It was three AM
when the group hugging commenced
I said "goodbye" and "I love you"
at least twelve times before I meant it...
Or before I realized it was
my last chance to mean it

I've never felt arms so strong
squeeze so tight
I've never felt a warmth so comforting
in the midst of such violent anxiety

Your blood,
doesn't match mine
But your mind,
I swear it melts into my eyes,
and coarses through my veins
some times

I'll miss you *****
with every bit of
empathy, love &
sanity I have left
I will miss you
until it hurts
and then calms
and circles back again

Please
Don't
Let
Me
Please
Don't
Make
Me
Have
To
Miss
You