I've known you for years. Grandad introduced us. You always made the room glow and laughter flow. You calmed me when I betrayed those I promised to never betray. You made me smarter than I was and clever when I was dull and modest when clever. There's always a madness in the air when you grace us with your presence. Thing is you make me ugly. I dance on tables with lamp shades on my head and drop my pants and invite kisses and go naked at noon. I plan your funeral. I bury you in a potter's field. I've tried burying you before. Like Christ you rise. I put a stake in your heart and salt on your grave. You refuse to be banished from the lives we live. Maybe you'll stay buried beside me in my grave.